Good Morning From
Camarillo!
I
agree with you Mom, Camarillo is a special place. As odd as this is, it kind of
reminds me of Utah a bit. We're a bit closer to some mountains, and it's
nestled out by itself, so it feels less busy and more quiet than a lot of the
cities in my mission. The members here are very kind too. This'll be a good
place to be for the rest of my mission. It's nice. :) We said goodbye to
everyone in Ventura earlier this week, including M. He's doing well and I
have high hopes for him. If he gets baptized while I'm here I would probably be
able to go up to his baptism. Keep him in your prayers. He just needs a little
more courage. I'm excited for him.
Haha...tripans are so interesting. We're having loads of fun though and we're
working hard. We have a lot of great people we're working with. 6 of our
investigators came to Stake Conference this week! Can I just say that I love my
companions? I do. I love Sister Olsen and it's been great to see her and talk
with her again, it's been about a year. And being transferred with Sister
Wilson was a huge blessing from Heavenly Father, I know it. I have grown to
love her so much and we've become good friends. I'm so happy to have her here
with me.The three of us are doing great together. What a happy, special way to
finish off my mission. We're now the only English Sisters in our whole zone!
(All of Camarillo and all of Oxnard.) We feel pretty special. The sisters
are fewer in number now. Yeah, the number of missionaries in our mission has
been going down a bit after the boom of missionaries.
Alright...here's the big story of this week. It was definitely one of the
scariest moments of my mission...no joke. But it was also one of the most
amazing ones. I'll never forget the feelings of this weekend. So I'll give you
the setting. I'm brand new to the Camarillo stake and so I've only met a few of
the members so far this week. Camarillo had their Stake Conference this
weekend. Elder Call of the 70 came. The whole conference was amazing and full of
the spirit. I learned so much, our investigators learned and loved so much of
it, and I got quite a few answers to prayers. Especially one BIG one. Be
careful what you pray for. ;) Over the last week or two I have been praying a
lot about my mission. I've had many experiences that have helped me to feel
that I am doing well and that I have pleased the Lord with my mission, but
sometimes you need a little extra confirmation. It can be easy to be hard on
yourself and to get discouraged. And so, I've been praying hard for additional
confirmation that I have been and am a successful missionary and that I've
pleased Him. I've also been studying and reading a lot on the topic. There is a
section in Preach My Gospel that is titled "A Successful Missionary."
Sounds applicable right? As I was reading this section on
Saturday morning, the last sentence really stood out to me. It says,
"You can feel certain that the Lord is pleased when you feel the Spirit
working through you." I asked myself, and yes, I can think of and point
out and recognize many moments when I've felt the Spirit working through me. I
was happy to have gotten an answer and felt peaceful that that had been my
confirmation. Little did I know that Heavenly Father had a little bit more to
give me on the subject. :) The adult Saturday night session was so
good and I was enjoying all that was said. We were sitting near the back of the
group. (Keep in mind there were about 600 or 700 people there from Camarillo
and Oxnard, including President and Sister Felix, the Los Angeles Temple
Presidency, a ton of missionaries that I know, and Elder Call of the 70.) Part
way through Elder Call's talk, he invites the members to all envision one of
their friends listening to the missionaries. He then says something along the
lines of at this point I need two of our missionaries to come up and help me.
And he says, "Hermana Brown...and Sister Hardman." Can you say scary
moment?! (Later Sister Felix told me that Elder Call had asked for two of the
missionaries names in this stake without telling them what he was going to do,
and Sister Felix felt prompted to say the two of us.) Anyway, he invited us to
come up to the stand...I bravely stood up and walked (long walk!) up there.
Hermana Brown, an Hermana I've never met before came up on the other side.
President and Sister Felix were beaming at us encouragingly. Elder Call then
asked us to teach the Restoration lesson in about 5-10 minutes to everyone
there. Holy cow, that was intimidating! Since Hermana Brown and I had never met,
we crossed to each other and meekly said hi and hugged. Gotta build instant
unity right? ;) And then we faced everyone and taught. It's hard for me to
explain what happened exactly, but it was powerful. I felt like I was shaking,
and my heart rate hurt, but we stood there together and the words flowed from
us. I didn't feel unprepared, I didn't feel alone. I could feel someone
teaching through me. I was being an instrument. The Spirit was so strong, and
as I looked out over the faces of members, investigators, missionaries, and
others I saw many people in tears. I testified of how I know that this is all
true. My testimony was strengthened as we taught. And yes...the most powerful
moment was as I recited the words of the First Vision. One word. Powerful. I
felt it and it was confirmed to me very strongly. I know that the Restoration
of the Gospel of Jesus Christ is true. Joseph Smith did receive that answer.
Heavenly Father loves us so much and always answers our prayers. After we
finished Elder Call shook my hand and said over the pulpit, "If it were
appropriate I'd hug those sisters!" As I sat down Sister Wilson hugged me
and said, "You made Sister Felix cry. She was sobbing." Sister Felix
is so sweet. So many people talked to me about their experiences doing that
moment. It was humbling. I kept wanting to say, "It wasn't me." The
next day I had the opportunity to talk with Elder Call for a few
minutes. We talked about the feeling of the Spirit working through you. He
talked about the love that we have for others being the Lord's love flowing
through us. Similar principle. Maybe all of this isn't quite making sense, but
the moral of the story is that I received a very clear answer to my prayer and
that I realized what a priviledge it is to be an instrument in the Lord's hands
and to have the Spirit teach through us. One of the themes of the conference
was that Heavenly Father is in the details. I couldn't agree more. He knew that
I needed that opportunity to share my testimony of the gospel, and he knew what
it would help me with. It was pretty cool experience. I'm doing my best to
please Him, and I'm doing my best to be the best missionary I can be, all the
way till the end.
Well...sorry, now I feel like I'm ranting. But I wanted to share that special
experience with you. Hope it makes sense. I hope you all have a wonderful week.
I love you all a lot! This'll be a good week. I love you!
Love, Melanie
(Sister Hardman)
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